Recently dismissed sophomore running back Morgan Ellison has released a single on Apple Music called "Out of My Mind."
In a statement released Friday evening by the program, Indiana sophomore running back Morgan Ellison was dismissed from the Indiana football program and suspended from the university for two and a half years.
Ellison released the song on Sunday October 21st, only three days after his dismissal from the program. The song is created under the artist name "Morgan 'Juice' Ellison." The song appears to make reference to his current state of mind and discusses a moment in which Ellison called his mother only to hear tears on the other end of the phone call.
This is the first time Ellison has expressed himself since the dismissal.
The cover art of the song appears to utilize a head-shot of Ellison that was taken prior to the season.
Below is a transcription of the lyrics:
Better get out of my mind, I'm hurting so bad and I don't know why
Better get out of my mind, I'm hurting so bad and I don't know why
Gotta get out of my mind, I'm hurting so bad and I don't know why
Sick of the feelings I just wanna die
Jesus I really need you in my life
My parents is hurting and I am the why
I broke her heart but then she broke mine
I'm sick of the pain just ruining lives
Having these dreams and they suck on my life
I want my shorty right back
Please tell your family I'm sorry I'm black
My heart is hurting but no heart attack
I think that it's broken but more than a crack
When you said you love me, were you telling the truth?
Yeah you said you did, but I'm looking for proof
Climb to the top of the roof, on the edge I thought in my head
Said Lord I wanna be dead
Please just get this evil up out of my head
Look down at my phone and my momma was calling
I picked it up and then she start balling
Sick of this life, my head been hurting all night
Hearing these lies about myself saying no way that this can be right
Stuck in my head, laying in bed, googling ways to be dead
Sick of the pain, this aint a game, I might just do what I said
Gotta get out of my mind, I'm hurting so bad and I don't know why
Sick of the feelings I just wanna die
Jesus I really need you in my life
My parents is hurting and I am the why
I broke her heart but then she broke mine
I'm sick of the pain just ruining lives
Having these dreams and they suck on my life
My heart is flipped upside down now
Haven't seen for a while now
Every time I see your face I get so upset, but can't help to smile now
When you said you love me, were you telling the truth?
Yeah you said you did, but I'm looking for proof
Gotta get out of my mind, I'm hurting so bad and I don't know why
Sick of the feelings I just wanna die
Jesus I really need you in my life
My parents is hurting and I am the why
I broke her heart but then she broke mine
I'm sick of the pain just ruining lives
Having these dreams and they suck on my life